did system | body is an adult | please read the dni/byf
An old flight rising painting I did of one of my dragons which I still really love cause wow that blending is *chef's kiss* perfect
"ah we haven't been splitting recently, it's probably fine to start playing a new video game"
*splits every single character immediately*
some old subeta commissions
characters owned by the users jane, betul, helix, jane (again), and gossamer
I made this drawing of how I imagined Nny would look like based solely on what I could gather from Vargas. I though I should try and redraw him a year later or so for comparison's sake.
Coloring and lighting remain the bane of my existence but I can see some improvements still! My stubborn gesture studies are paying off :)
Philza Minecraft (said lovingly)
i love phil :)
Finished painting this jacket
Haven't posted here in a minute, but I did finish up this piece, which I really liked the finished product of, especially with the fluorescent paint.
X. wheel of fortune
part of a personal project with drawing my ocs into tarot cards. i'll be reuploading the ones i've already got slowly over here
Painting I did for my parents in watercolor/gouache.
Reference used: https://unsplash.com/photos/5egRIjSdG1w
[ID: Fanart. A digital artwork in purple, beige and orange tones depicting two death reapers from Grimm's Hollow. They bump into each other, holding a velvet cake together and directing it towards the viewer. Their hoodies and masks are dirty with bits of frosting. End ID]
A gift for you
You can get a print of this watercolor painting from my RedBubble store
Obviously it didn't take me long to make some fanart!
Only surprise is that it's gender swap fanart lol
Reworking an old design with some actual goddamn design sense this time around
tumblr shadowbanned my account for no reason. just testing how this site works, been looking for some alternatives haha
friendly reminder that system responsibility is still a thing and you can't just say another alter did something to avoid it
if a member of your system hurt someone, that's on the entire system. if they want to hash it out with a specific alter, that's fine; however, that does not absolve the rest of the system of responsibility.
anyone else not know who they are without their mental illness
mental health, venty
much less going about my day and actually remembering what i did or not having at least one minor crisis because i looked in the mirror before processing that the body doesn't look like me, or not being able to just duck out when i can't do it anymore, or not needing to filter through every thought i have to check and make sure is this the bpd talking or could this situation actually be a risk? is it the same risk that i'm percieving or am i overthinking it? i can't imagine a life where i'm able to enjoy something casually, it's not just all or nothing, i can watch a youtuber and not have to watch every single one of their videos (or at least every one on a topic) or play a game and not have to play every game in that saga or watch a movie and not have it be the only thing i can think about for weeks.
i genuinely can't imagine a life without being mentally ill, and i don't think it's that we intentionally did it - i think at some point, you really do become your mental illness.
maybe less so for some, but in our case, especially having did and bpd, i... i don't think there's really a way for those not to become part of who you are. sure, i can separate myself from the rest of the system, but... it's figuring out who i am that's the hard part. sure, i'm me, but who is me? and once you take away my mental illness, what's really left? would i be like this otherwise?
It's fun having different comfort medias.
i can't tell if we're manic or just tired of being stuck in a building and it's really not helping that 1. those of us most affected by mania are just refusing to front and 2. we ran out of medication